By Travis Newbill
Floral Notes and Bardo: The Creative Chronicles of a Shambhala Mountain Resident is a daily feature on the SMC blog in which a member of our staff/community shares his experience of existing as part of Shambhala Mountain Center.
Arriving home last week… Home is here, Shambhala Mountain Center — where I’m greeted so warmly by my friends, where Dorian wanted to hear about how my Florida trip went, then said “you’re family” and we hugged. The elders, hugs. Lunch together, delicious, prepared by my friends.
And, here I am with a companion — Heather, who I met, really met, in the enchanted aspen grove, one of my favorite spots on the planet.
Photo by John Russell
And nearby the Stupa and the clear presence of lineage everywhere. Everywhere… here, and how about everywhere else? How about Florida? I don’t feel so good or at home there, but there is lots more world. To be here is safe. There is a background attitude of :
“Okay universe, I’ve come to live and serve at the place where the Stupa is. I’m doing my part.”
Somehow, it seems a bit too simple. To just stay here forever.
Joshua told me:
“Logic is safe. Maybe you should go have kids. Trungpa Rinpoche said that every child you have is a nail in the coffin. You really want to practice tonglen? Try that.”
I get it.
It’s easy here. My meals are prepared for me. Spiritually, “I’m doing my part.”
Anyway… This is a precious opportunity, and it is fleeting.
Last weekend, Heather and I did a program with Bruce Tift, who is a longtime student of Trungpa Rinpoche, former Naropa professor, and a psychotherapist with decades of experience. Some key nuggets:
Relationship is legitimately path. Appreciation for the relationship I am in. And the possibility that my path will lead me to live outside of Shambhala Mountain Center someday…
I knew that. But, something about talking about the future with Heather made it real.
My heart broke open a lot this past weekend.
This morning, in Colorado, my love and I sat naked and ate a mango from Florida. True story.
– May 19, 2014
Travis Newbill is a curious dude on the path of artistry, meditation, and social engagement who is very glad to be residing at Shambhala Mountain Center. His roles within the organization include Marketing Associate and Head Dekyong–a position of leadership within the community.